Weakness

I know nobody comes here, and I hope nobody read this because I don't like showing people how weak I am inside.
What's up is that I am sad now. And the reason for that is feeling lonely. It's not only it, tho. I wish I were rational all the times, such that I wouldn't suffer this much, but it's something that makes me human.
I was going to write an email to Auri, telling her about it, but I don't know if it's a good thing. She has her own life. Fine, I suppose. I don't want to bother her about my silly feelings. I still can't tell someone else about myself, as I did with her, tho.
There are two persons that help me a lot.. specially lately. The first one is Janiliz. She's my very best friend, despite she doesn't think the same. She's not being online so much lately, so she's much aware about my stuff, lately. The other one is Allison. She's been the person that has mostly taken care of me on these hard days. She's a good girl and I hope I can give her back, somehow, all the help she's giving me.
But when nobody is there, I feel so weak. All I can do is to hold my tears.
I'm getting a fake person, for pretending that everything is alright when it's not...
If I just had someone I completely trust, to tell all I feel...
If just a single person...