Siyango

I was just talking with Si about watching scary shows and somehow, we were talking about traveling and then, she said that she want to become a field biologist. Then, we talked about researching and that she could travel as a consequence. I enjoyed this idea pretty much! ^^ I hope I can do the same, as an Artificial Intelligence researcher. =3

The missing talk

I've got a nice afternoon with Auri. We've talked about some things I wanted, for some time, to say her and that wasn't that bad as I thought it would be. I think that's what she does, anyway. A gentle, warm and soothing blow.
Have I already said it before? I feel that I'm becoming a very emo person. I don't really like it, but I cried when I talked with her. In the loyal part. I said it's not that good at all, but I didn't told her the resons for that. It's because it hurts when it's over. A budhism saying states that if something happens, it's suposed to happen. It kinda soothes my heart about it.
We've also played some Neopets. It was fun! XD My Dashiwo was stronger than her Aliazse at first, but then she ended overcoming my pet. I gotta get more on it! Lol
In general, I enjoyed talking with her. I was missing it and I got kinda fulfilled with it. ^^

Weakness

I know nobody comes here, and I hope nobody read this because I don't like showing people how weak I am inside.
What's up is that I am sad now. And the reason for that is feeling lonely. It's not only it, tho. I wish I were rational all the times, such that I wouldn't suffer this much, but it's something that makes me human.
I was going to write an email to Auri, telling her about it, but I don't know if it's a good thing. She has her own life. Fine, I suppose. I don't want to bother her about my silly feelings. I still can't tell someone else about myself, as I did with her, tho.
There are two persons that help me a lot.. specially lately. The first one is Janiliz. She's my very best friend, despite she doesn't think the same. She's not being online so much lately, so she's much aware about my stuff, lately. The other one is Allison. She's been the person that has mostly taken care of me on these hard days. She's a good girl and I hope I can give her back, somehow, all the help she's giving me.
But when nobody is there, I feel so weak. All I can do is to hold my tears.
I'm getting a fake person, for pretending that everything is alright when it's not...
If I just had someone I completely trust, to tell all I feel...
If just a single person...

Rewind

One month is not enought to forget, to stop remembering.
These memories come by themselves when I least expect.
Is there anything I can do about it? I don't think so.
Rationally thinking, the only option left is to move on.
But...
But...