A quite irresponsible moment

I must confess I have an important exam next wednesday, but I just can't concentrate on studying. I think I'm feeling what many have already felt, but that I never did, before university: lack of motivation by questioning what's important in life. I grew up blindfolded to that question. My parents used to complain of how hard it was to save money and that we should work to get money to help them pay the bills. They didn't say or admit it, but they would still regularly exchange their cars, but would resist on paying for english classes for their children. Not only that, but the sum of many other things I was told, and the frustration comming from them, makes me just feel like an immediate return is more certain than a distant promise. I should study, but my mind has definately been taken by the wind.

Inherited senseless

My dad doesn't really have a sensible line of though. I'll explain in topics:

First: Everything is fine.
Second: Dad thinks we're spending too much.
Third: He demmands cancelling some services.
Forth: I spend some hours in the phone making to cancel the services.
Fifth: It takes a couple of weeks to definately make the change.
Sixth: They call my dad offering some other services.
Seventh: Dad approves those services.

Services = cable tv and ip phone.

And of course, he gave me life and raised me. I've been taking many of his actions as examples of what I shouldn't do. But if I learn what I shouldn't do, how am I supposed to learn what I should do?

Room with no walls

Okay, I could have started the first rant series before.

Have you ever slept in a room without walls? I have and still do. What do you think about a room where all the sound from out of it comes into it, not lowering even a bit anything, even if the door or the window are closed. In other words, the walls don't work! My room has no fucking walls!! There are bricks and painting on it and window and door, but it's a VIRTUAL WALL!! Okay, I know the flaw comes from the shitty aluminium window my parents bought, but the fucking window is the biggest fail in the wall! It's SPECIALLY AND FUCKING IRRITATING when you're AWAKE WITH YOUR MOM YELLING RIGHT INTO YOUR EARS, WHEN ALL YOU WANT IS A BIT OF PEACE IN SLEEPING AFTER A LONG SEQUENCE OF NO QUALITY SLEEP NIGHTS!!! This is not the only isolated case. IT HAPPENS EVERYTIME MY MOM ANSWERS THE FUCKING TELEPHONE OR ANYONE WATCHES TV! FUCK, all I want to do now is to take the damn window down to put bricks into that fucking hole!

Dude, I wish I were ranting about Windows^tm, but no, it's an ACTUAL AND PHYSICAL WINDOW. HAVE YOU EVER SEEN SOOMETHING LIKE THAT? ME NEITHER!! %@#%@(#&$(@*&%(*&@*&%@#$(@*&#%(@