Game addict

The last hours were the ones I've been addicting the most, here in Canada. I was supposed to quit it some days ago, but the challenge of the mechanics of the game is so exciting that decided to play a bit again. And then this bit became an all day play. For two whole days.

I don't really know what happens in other people's mind when they get addicted, but I'll try to write down what I thought while I was addicted, over the last two days, or better, what usually happens.

It all starts before the play starts, where everything is not as exciting or entertaining enough, when I'm doing all the same thing over and over and anything seems to reward me in any way. And then I know this game, and I know a bit of its mechanics, and how people who play it usually behaves, even though each is a very different person from each other.

When the match takes place and then I can have two kind of happenings. The good/bad axis, where the game is challenging, entertaining and/or fun, or not, and the short/long axis, where the match takes a short or a long time to end. When the game was good, I get all excited with it and I want to experience more of it again. When the game was bad, I feel frustrated and I want to start another match, so I can get a better match. The good/bad experience is sometimes related with when my team wins or loses the match. Moreover, the team is also another factor for that. Since each person has different skills, with differents game characters, and the same happening with the opposite team, every match is a completely different setting, even though the elements, like the characters, items and map are the same. Just like any other game.

Two things happens with me when I get into that vicious cycle. I still think about the world out there, but I always feel that to play just one more match won't make a big difference. The other thing is that I always have this thought at the end of a match.

I know to be addicted like this can be harmful to my mind. I'm usually just taken by the moment when it happens and I don't really see that I'm wasting an important time for the history of my life.