Random feelings

I've been rearranging some stuff in the living room today. I was enjoying the brand new layout, which would make the room more enlightened and better ventilated, when it came to a time when I needed to buy an about $5 connector. So I asked her for some money and she came with all the "you always ask for money" monologue. It just annoys me how she don't want me to buy some needed things that's supposed to benefit everyone, but when it happens to be off sales of some futile things, the story is completely different. It frustrated me.

After stopping the rearrangement, I got to know about my daughter's blog. I'm not really sure if I was supposed to know about it, but she allowed me to and after reading one and another post, I felt like I could see a bit of her inner self and I feel like she's trusting a bit of herself on me. I feel I should be responsible, but I'm happy about this gesture. It makes me feel better.

I also feel that life is more than the cages set up around us...

Baby shower

Today I went to two highschool friends, Anderson and Massae's baby shower. When I told my mom about it, she found it weird because baby showers are supposed to be a women only event. Well, I guess we're a cool circle of friends and so guys were also invited! Haha

I picked a bedside lamp to give her as a gift. So yesterday I went to Conibase, a construction store a few steps away from home. I found a few lamps there, but the slightly cute ones were not really that clean: they were covered with dust! It's such a no no. So I decided to go to the shops in and around Shopping Butantã, but no luck. That's when I decided I had to check at Consolação Avenue and once I was there, I got surprised with so many options! After walking various shops, I finally found one which had a round lamp made with a light metal and some kind of thick cloth with some small animals on a pink and white background. Btw, I couldn't test it beforehand, so I don't know if it works well! I'm worried now, I'll write and send Anderson an email...

New days

I like to think that the moon is there even if I am not looking at it.
(Albert Einstein)

Emanated by memory shards,
nostalgia scent in the air.
Two years has passed.
How many tick tocks can we bear?

So many things have happened,
and so many changes were done.
Enough of sadness, enough of grief,
all I want now is good times to come!

I am now confident and very positive,
I'll make my mind and heart open and very active.

New ideas

I have this kind of ideas burst sometimes.

Whenever I lay down, whenever I take a shower, whenever I walk to college, I have a bright new project idea. They are not really the most revolucionary ones, but some of them are good ones! Like creating a new non-profit organization, building a new store or creating a new technology. Some of them are really exciting and stuff but the problem is: how to make them real?

In my mind, I have some idea about where to go and what to do once I'm there, but to get there is the biggest problem. I'm pretty sure I'm not alone in this reality barrier. Some say that if we get used to experience easy and simple things, we tend to assume all the other things are also like that. And maybe they actually are, in some sense, but they probably have many many things related to them. For example, writting in this blog is a pretty simple thing to do, but I can't number all the technology and resources involved to make all these words to reach readers all around the world.

I don't think there is a magic solution for this, but we can always work on decisions, preparations, attitudes and a bit of good luck.

Room with no walls

Okay, I could have started the first rant series before.

Have you ever slept in a room without walls? I have and still do. What do you think about a room where all the sound from out of it comes into it, not lowering even a bit anything, even if the door or the window are closed. In other words, the walls don't work! My room has no fucking walls!! There are bricks and painting on it and window and door, but it's a VIRTUAL WALL!! Okay, I know the flaw comes from the shitty aluminium window my parents bought, but the fucking window is the biggest fail in the wall! It's SPECIALLY AND FUCKING IRRITATING when you're AWAKE WITH YOUR MOM YELLING RIGHT INTO YOUR EARS, WHEN ALL YOU WANT IS A BIT OF PEACE IN SLEEPING AFTER A LONG SEQUENCE OF NO QUALITY SLEEP NIGHTS!!! This is not the only isolated case. IT HAPPENS EVERYTIME MY MOM ANSWERS THE FUCKING TELEPHONE OR ANYONE WATCHES TV! FUCK, all I want to do now is to take the damn window down to put bricks into that fucking hole!

Dude, I wish I were ranting about Windows^tm, but no, it's an ACTUAL AND PHYSICAL WINDOW. HAVE YOU EVER SEEN SOOMETHING LIKE THAT? ME NEITHER!! %@#%@(#&$(@*&%(*&@*&%@#$(@*&#%(@