I'm unhappy

It's a quite tough moment. I feel like I can hardly get any support from those who means a lot to me, family or friends, in a time when I just want to be understood, or listened at least. What to do now? I don't know, but I'd like to change. Change. This is a word that's been present in my whole life. All I want is a bit of happiness. I'm desperate for it, actually. And I've been trying to go after that, but it seems the more I walk, the farther it gets. Am I going to the wrong way? How can I find the right one?

How to waste an ally

Well, it's much better when I can post in a good mood. Yes, if you're inferring my mood is not currently a good one, you're right.

Imagine you were having a pleasant walk, in a pleasant place, like a park. Then, when you go outside, you suddenly see yourself surrounded by hungry lions, willing to devour whatever piece of meat they see. Well, my situation is not that dramatic, but one could see it that way.

To be at home can be a good thing, but to me it's stressing. It's not really a place where I can have peace. And this is all about my parents. It's frustrating how I have to direct my life without support from them. It's like driving with brakes on all the time. Imagine you want to study, so you can get into a good highschool or university, to study English, so you can reach the rest of the world, or fight for what you believe. Well, my dad is against it all because he's the one who brings money home and, thus, he has the right to demand others to stop they projects and their plans to do as he will.

Well, if that's the memories he wants to build on me, I can't do much, but to remember them in the future.