A quite irresponsible moment

I must confess I have an important exam next wednesday, but I just can't concentrate on studying. I think I'm feeling what many have already felt, but that I never did, before university: lack of motivation by questioning what's important in life. I grew up blindfolded to that question. My parents used to complain of how hard it was to save money and that we should work to get money to help them pay the bills. They didn't say or admit it, but they would still regularly exchange their cars, but would resist on paying for english classes for their children. Not only that, but the sum of many other things I was told, and the frustration comming from them, makes me just feel like an immediate return is more certain than a distant promise. I should study, but my mind has definately been taken by the wind.

Tas

About five years ago, dad brought an old labrador home from his client. He used to walk with difficulty when he arrived home, but he learned where to do his needs and to find the food and water. He didn't use to bark without need and was always quiet in his spot. But then it came a time when he couldn't walk anymore, even though he tried his best efforts to do so. We had to give him more attention and care, ever since, giving him food and water, cleaning and covering him when it started to get cold. I must admit we lack patience sometimes, by waking up at night or having to interrupt our tasks to satisfy his needs, and I'm sorry for those times. But he only barked to ask for some help with something he would actually do by himself, without disturbing anyone. How hard it is to need something, like eating and drinking, but not be able to do it by ourselves. I don't know his past, nor his future, but he was a good boy and strived for his life until the last moment. He changed out lives and left an empty spot. I hope you're doing fine, wherever you are, Tas. Rest in peace. Tas: aprox. ??/??/1995 - 12/november/2011

"The truth is, everyone is going to hurt you.

You just got to find the ones worth suffering for." - Bob Marley