Responsibility

Some days ago, I've been stressed, as some of you might already know.
Well, the good news is that I'm not, anymore. The bad one is that I have another problem. I'm lacking responsibility.
Over the last days, I've been relaxing and getting rid of my stress, by letting all those stressful things aside, Relaxing and enjoying the time I have with things that pleases me, like listening to songs, organizing my email, talking, specially with my beloved one, drawing, missing some classes and one or another workday.
In my thoughts, I got into the conclusion that the more you HAVE to do, the more stress you get when the deadline is close. That might be obvious, but I don't think about it all the time and figuring this out made me think about what to do concerning everything. I think that the choice I made helped me in a lot of ways, relieving in a sense that I needed to do it all.
On the other hand, My academic life froze. I know that I'm going to stress once I get back into it, but now I can bear it. For the next one month and half, It's going to be not as hard as if I didn't had this break.
Another point of view that I was thinking about is that it could be concidered as a burst of responsibility lack. I've put my entertainment and my self pleasure before work and duties, because that's what matters to earn money. It's so wrong, I must admit, but It's not that often that I do it and, besides that, these might be some of my last chances of doing things wrong before I start to work and depend on a job and money to survive.

But there are values that not money can buy, like the picture above. Despite all, I have no doubt it worths. I love you so, hon.

Emptying mind

I've just figured out that I have to empty my mind.
You know when it's all polluted and saturated with things stuck? It's not a good thing, believe me. So what am I going to do? Let them gradually dissolve or kick their asses off by force?
Well, I got this thing before and what I've done so far is to bear until it's vacation, so I can relax all the time I couldn't before. This time is different, tho. I've never done so many things like now, haven't lived so subject to so many things before. I think that no extreme way would help much.
I'm going to try to balance.. such that it can be bearable until a I can do a real rest. Probably emptying my mind sometimes, somehow. Is there a way to do it everyday? Oh, yeah, my mind can be completely empty with the right stimuli. But sometimes my mind doesn't get into it completely and that's not exatly a good thing. I want to find something that makes me completely forget about my tasks or things I have to do for some time, that makes me forget about my responsibilities. It would relieve a scream so stuck within.
With the weather getting cold (I know, it might not be that cold. Haha. But it's still cold!), the options are not so wide. And thinking about things I can do indoor, I've just figured out that I still can do some entertaining stuff, like watching, talking, reading... physical activities! And good rests, of course.
I'm going to set a limit time to stop doing the stuff I have to do at about 20h30 and 21h30, if there is something really important. Then, for the rest of the time, I'm going to use it completely for myself, including everything else, mainly to talk, specially with my love. Then bed.
I'm going to start it tomorrow because it's already late and I need a time to prepare myself, but I'm not going to bed late today, as I still have some headache that's been lasting over the last few days.
Well, it's dinner time. I'll write more soon. I don't consider it as a task, btw.

ps: I've just seen this rating thing. I was like "WTF?!" Haha. I think it would be interesting to keep it on, tho.

About Duality

Haha Okay, I know that the title of my last post doesn't make much sense to the post itself, but I'll explain it further.
Duality is the idea of coexistence of opposites that complements each other. Some say that these opposites are conflituous, like good and bad. Well, why do they necessarily have to be conflituous? Do they have to be conflituous just because they're opposites? Some say this conflict is generated by a fight for power. The surpassing of one over another, just like ideas of winner and looser, strong and weak and so on. But instead of dissensions, why not simplily accept their existence?
That's the why of the coexistence term, in my conception. This is the idea behind this new layout. And of course, following this idea, there is a lot of meaning behind the elements used, that's completely free to the reader to imagine about.

Next duality

On the last posts, I've commented that things were happening, a lot of them, by the way. I might write about them sooner or later, but for now, I would like to write about the change in my blog.
I wanted to reflect the changes in my life on my blog template and by doing so, I hope I could express myself in a better way. This layout emanates a different energy as the elements and colors have different qualities, even though some elements were kept.
But by now, due to lack of time to do other stuff and needing to go to bed (it's already late for the time I had to go to bed), I'll leave my explanations about the layout and everything else for later.
See you!