Miyavi's show

Last night I went to Miyavi's show! It took almost one hour for me to get ready, since the time I looked at the clock until the time I took my keys, money, cel phone and left.
I took a bus in Raposo Tavares until Consolação/Paulista, where I took another bus. Still in Paulista, I saw the lesbians event and heard some old people commenting about that. "(...) and that's why god punish them (...)" was one of the comments. Well, even tho Brazil has so many different ethnics and cultures and ideologies and options, there are people that aren't open to certain things.
When I got there, the caretaker opened the gate and I entered. I got into a small room with a glass door ahead. Through it, I could see a large room with some few tables and almost as few people. Then I turned right and there was a mother with her child and the caretaker. "Erm... Where's the Miyavi's show?" I asked and he replied: "They changed the show to another place. It's already happening." At that time I was already thinking about asking for my money back, but I went there anyway.
So I took the subways and went to the street that woman told me, "It's at São Joaquim street." Well, there I was in the right street, but wait, where in that street was it?! "Erm..." I looked around when I saw a japanese girl who seemed to be going there. "Excuse me, are you going to Miyavi's show?" I asked and she replied "No." I thanked her anyway and kept going on. So I entered a place that seemed to have some people there, but after one minute, I saw few old old, few young people, all spiffy and turned back. "That's definitely not here." I thought when I stepped out and saw that girl. "She must have come the the wedding party. Oh well..." I thought again. I was walking more when that girl called me. "I've just remembered what it's about! It's in Bunkyo, you just have to go ahead!" The girl told me and I thanked her again. Thinking now, I think I should have asked her name to thank her again in this blog for being so nice and helpful, even though I was going ahead anyway.
When I finally got there, It was full of people until the entrance of the hall. So I poked a girl and asked if it's been a long time since they started. "You've lost only two songs." She replied when I noticed that she had facial hair and masculine traces. Well, I hope people don't mistake myself with a girl for having long hair too!
It was very crowded there and I could hardly get any close to see Miyavi, so as someone got out from the hall, I went to that way. A physics law states that two bodies can't be at the same place at the same time. Following that logic, if a body leaves, another can be in that place. So I sneaked ahead and got a closer place! Haha that happened a few more times when I was almost half-way to the stage.
I was there and looking at the side, I saw a girl trying to take a picture. "HEY! WOULD YOU LIKE I TAKE THE PICTURE FOR YOU?!" By then, it was possible to communicate yelling only, trying to be nice/helpful. "No, I'm trying to record a video, actually." She yelled back. O-okay. They were on my side, but somehow she and her friend managed to be in front of me. A few minutes ahead, the song was cool and that girl's friend started to jump and rub on me. With a WTF face I stepped back, thinking that it wouldn't be any good. A few ahead, she went to another place. Good.
From the songs I know he played, they were Are You Ready to Rock and Senor Senora Senorita, among others. I think I missed Selfish Love, the song I was expecting to watch. Oh, well...

Responsibility

Some days ago, I've been stressed, as some of you might already know.
Well, the good news is that I'm not, anymore. The bad one is that I have another problem. I'm lacking responsibility.
Over the last days, I've been relaxing and getting rid of my stress, by letting all those stressful things aside, Relaxing and enjoying the time I have with things that pleases me, like listening to songs, organizing my email, talking, specially with my beloved one, drawing, missing some classes and one or another workday.
In my thoughts, I got into the conclusion that the more you HAVE to do, the more stress you get when the deadline is close. That might be obvious, but I don't think about it all the time and figuring this out made me think about what to do concerning everything. I think that the choice I made helped me in a lot of ways, relieving in a sense that I needed to do it all.
On the other hand, My academic life froze. I know that I'm going to stress once I get back into it, but now I can bear it. For the next one month and half, It's going to be not as hard as if I didn't had this break.
Another point of view that I was thinking about is that it could be concidered as a burst of responsibility lack. I've put my entertainment and my self pleasure before work and duties, because that's what matters to earn money. It's so wrong, I must admit, but It's not that often that I do it and, besides that, these might be some of my last chances of doing things wrong before I start to work and depend on a job and money to survive.

But there are values that not money can buy, like the picture above. Despite all, I have no doubt it worths. I love you so, hon.

Emptying mind

I've just figured out that I have to empty my mind.
You know when it's all polluted and saturated with things stuck? It's not a good thing, believe me. So what am I going to do? Let them gradually dissolve or kick their asses off by force?
Well, I got this thing before and what I've done so far is to bear until it's vacation, so I can relax all the time I couldn't before. This time is different, tho. I've never done so many things like now, haven't lived so subject to so many things before. I think that no extreme way would help much.
I'm going to try to balance.. such that it can be bearable until a I can do a real rest. Probably emptying my mind sometimes, somehow. Is there a way to do it everyday? Oh, yeah, my mind can be completely empty with the right stimuli. But sometimes my mind doesn't get into it completely and that's not exatly a good thing. I want to find something that makes me completely forget about my tasks or things I have to do for some time, that makes me forget about my responsibilities. It would relieve a scream so stuck within.
With the weather getting cold (I know, it might not be that cold. Haha. But it's still cold!), the options are not so wide. And thinking about things I can do indoor, I've just figured out that I still can do some entertaining stuff, like watching, talking, reading... physical activities! And good rests, of course.
I'm going to set a limit time to stop doing the stuff I have to do at about 20h30 and 21h30, if there is something really important. Then, for the rest of the time, I'm going to use it completely for myself, including everything else, mainly to talk, specially with my love. Then bed.
I'm going to start it tomorrow because it's already late and I need a time to prepare myself, but I'm not going to bed late today, as I still have some headache that's been lasting over the last few days.
Well, it's dinner time. I'll write more soon. I don't consider it as a task, btw.

ps: I've just seen this rating thing. I was like "WTF?!" Haha. I think it would be interesting to keep it on, tho.

About Duality

Haha Okay, I know that the title of my last post doesn't make much sense to the post itself, but I'll explain it further.
Duality is the idea of coexistence of opposites that complements each other. Some say that these opposites are conflituous, like good and bad. Well, why do they necessarily have to be conflituous? Do they have to be conflituous just because they're opposites? Some say this conflict is generated by a fight for power. The surpassing of one over another, just like ideas of winner and looser, strong and weak and so on. But instead of dissensions, why not simplily accept their existence?
That's the why of the coexistence term, in my conception. This is the idea behind this new layout. And of course, following this idea, there is a lot of meaning behind the elements used, that's completely free to the reader to imagine about.