Autumn wanderer

It's a clear sky and a shinning sun over my head
The sand massages my feet with each step I make
But the wind is cold.

It's Autumn.

That's the season when I was born
It's the most nostalgic seasons,
with the fresh memories from spring and summer
It's where the last beauties lays before winter.

At the seashore, Nature won't stop its waves
nor the small lives will stop for this lonely wanderer to pass.

The scent and the song are now gone,
no matter how many times I smell or listen to the air.

I still keep walking, wondering if I'll ever feel something like I once felt.

The job news and some complaints

It's already been a month since I first started my new job. I'm developing a system for an electronic components factory. I'm doing the system the way I want it to be with a real use for that! I'm really excited about that!

But running that along with college and all the work I have to do is a really hard thing to do. I get home tired every day in weekdays. But well, it's doing really good when it concerns to fix my schedule and keeping me away from HoN!

Right now I'm having an abstinence syndrome, tho. I'm trying to talk to some friends, but it's so hard. One of them is busy and afk, another one is offline, another is busy with her boyfriend and yet another is tired of my complaints. Funny, huh? I'm a whiner because I complain a lot. I'll build a list of complaints up and post it here, someday.

It's so hard when who I actually want to talk to is not here... It's specially harder to have someone and lose her than to never had one. To be used to be a lonely person doesn't mean I want to be like this nor that I like it. But that's life, it goes on, eh?

I held your hand...

I dreamed about you tonight, it was a really nice dream!

We had finally met and we were sitting close to each other and I asked you if you would let me hug you and you said yes. But then I warned you that I was sweating and might be not smelling good, and so you thought for one second and grabbed my hands and then we were hold both of them. Your hands were so soft and warm and comfortable! I wished I could never let it go, it was such an amazing moment...

But then someone appeared and probably due to shyness or something like that, we released one of our hands, but we were still holding the other (I was holding your left hand with my right one) and we walked to the living room that way. When we got there, I was looking at the room and you gave a book about drums and a notebook to write while I learn it. And that's how I found out when it happened. There was a date on it, but I can only remember the year. It was 2015.

And then I woke up and thought that I really have to write about this. I don't know why, but I still want to keep these dreams... And.. you know, if you really read it someday, it made me remember about some poems which you wrote and was refering to someone as "you". I wouldn't blame you if it's about someone you didn't really want to mention. It's just something that was really special...

Need for updates

I have so many things to write about. I really need to get some time to write about many many things that has happened along all this time. Actually, there aren't really that much things, but still, there is a lot to write about. For now I'll just say that I spent a weekend at the beach, that I had some trouble while I made a 20km wander and that I might finally finish reading The Secret Garden! But I'll make a better update soon.